After a hurtful commentary from a blog reader through the email, I decided to close the blog. First allowing only selective friends in, and then even thinking of closing it completely. The arrow was strategically placed and shot right into the heart at the least expected moment. And then... I received 174 emails in ONE day from my devoted readers, 80% of which, I had no idea about, asking me to add them to " invited list" . I was astounded. When the counter hit over 350... it brought me to tears. Of gratitude. The intention of my writing was to be an inspiration - one person would make me more then happy. Almost 400... - no words to describe my feelings. Except ... THANK YOU. Thank you all for your kind hearts. Whether you knew it or not, but it came at a very much needed time giving me just the spark I needed to light up my mind and heart again and get me back on feet.
Seeing how many there were finding SOMETHING for THEMSELVES from my journey, it would just be plain wrong to stop this river because of those few that disagree or disapprove. For the first time I decided to address you all, together and individually, at the same time.
My Dear Reader. This blog was created with the intention and purpose of inspiration. I hoped , as my fingers were running through the keyboard, materializing my thoughts , or more like, my heart, that my journey would be of an assistance to you. I found strength at the most needed time through someone else's blog. I am eternally grateful for that person, she came into my life every time helping me through and not even knowing it. And so , in return, I wish to help someone else. I wish neither to force, nor teach anyone. This is MY journey, Dear Friend. If you like what I do - I am happy to be of help and assistance, if you don't ... Please, go with peace. I realize that I cannot make anyone do it, neither do I want to. I can only ask for respect. Commentary of the type of "camoflaged around generalistic philosophy on love and caring and who know's what else" or "intellectual dishonesty in selective ignorance or disregard of the true love our Heavenly Father manifested in your life in literally hundred of individual incidents and true miracles. Instead replacing HIM with some unknown God who obviously is not so "demanding" but likewise seems to offer very little beyond the immediacy of perceived happiness" are nothing more then your own opinions, which you have the full right to express, but on at the expense of my feelings , so openly and sincerely expressed, on MY sacred place. If you think I am wrong - pray for me and show your love to me, not criticism and mockery of what is SACRED to me. In your words you've only shown that while reading through and though, you've seen nothing of what I wrote about, and then turned it around me.
If I don't inspire you, but cause you , Dear Reader, concerns, confusion and disagreement, the fare question to ask would be : why read? To each is own. I neither force my way, neither take yours away from you. Be, please, mindful, of MY sacred place. I let you in my heart. It is sad that you see it as "camouflaged philosophy of love and caring".
It actually is not. It IS my way of loving and caring. And , as for , as you said, "some unknown God who is not so "demanding""... My Dear Reader, I choose to see good in every minute of my life, because life is too short to be view it otherwise. And as such, I've seen more blessings and MIRACLES in MY life, then you can ever imagine or recognize for me. And, believe it or not, while living my own, and oh-not-so-approved-by-you way. But those I will most definitely keep to our family. At least for some time. With all your righteous desire to "straighten me up" you failed to recognize ONE thing: what YOU perceive and happiness is MISERY to me. And on that note... If you can't say anything good about what I do, then don't say it at all. I am not writing in question or for approval. I am stating my heart, my thoughts and my understandings. For BODY, SPIRIT and SOUL.