That is just it. I am just FINE : Freaked Out, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional. Why? I don't know. I really shouldn't be. I wanted it in the first place. It is a blessing. I know it is. I know it is right. Why am I feeling like this? Because i didn't really think it'd happen? Did i secretly hope for it not happening? I must have. But there is no turn around now. I am excited - my "freaked out" and excited state are mixed together. And emotional is definitely a "happy" kind of emotion. I just need to chill and process it all.